so sunday is just around the corner and i'm beginning to dump stuff 'more systematically' into my suitcase. not that i even unpacked to begin with... but i'm beginning to take notice of all the things that have and are yet to be put in. basically trying to keep my mind off the fact that i'm leaving lah! ;p
when i first came back here on the 16th... it took me about a week to acclimate to being home. it was weird... the 2 previous times i'd flown home... could not wait to land in klia and be with my family. my suitcase was out and propped open on my floor atleast a week before my departure date. but for some reason, when i came back this time... i started packing the day before. not that i wasn't excited about heading home, but for the first time i felt like as if i was ACTUALLY leaving something behind. or more... some PEOPLE behind. isn't that how we feel about the people at home? our friends and family that we see everyday and build routines with, when we leave for wherever, we break those routines and we sacrifice time with those people. with all that's happened within the past 10 weeks, and the closer i got to my friends, it's not that i began to miss home less... i just started to miss melbourne a little more. but now i'm back to 'normal' and i'm ridiculously happy to be home and I DON'T WANT TO LEAVE... YET! give me another week, somebody! :(
honestly, the thought of missing everything at home while in melbourne makes me homesick everyday. the thought that hafiz is getting bigger and learning and doing new things without me there to watch it materialise (and laugh most of the time :D), makes me feel like as if i'm missing out on so much! everytime i pack for melbourne, and i watch spike and angel pace around me with disapproval... i can't help but wonder whether they'll be around when i get back! *sniff sniff* ;p
so yeah... insane rambling aside... this time of the holidays isn't a pleasant one. so to get my mind off it... i preoccupied my day! yay! got joel's butter paper from mom's office this afternoon. coaxed mom into playing hookie and went shopping at forever 21 (woohoo! i love that shop! they cater for marshmallows like me!) and got a girly top to wear for spring in melbourne. best part was i even got her to buy some stuff too! i mean come on... how cool is it that my mom buys stuff from forever 21?!
so to date... i still need to:
1. get jacq jacq's danglies (cause the little one finally got her ears pierced last week! and i promised her prom date that i would help facillitate her impending glam-i-ness *you know who you are you sadistically evil person!*)
2. some stuff for ai-lynn, mark and kevin (though i already know what i'll be getting... i'm not writing it down at the risk that they find out :D)
3. movie therapy for myself with a visit to my dvd guy heng in amcorp mall
4. put the finishing touches on my prom dress
then it's back to melbourne... not quite home... but where i've been for the past 8 months... ;p
