so i guess it's only natural that now, at 27, lee releases a song that describes - in chilling clarity - everything i've been feeling for almost a year...
for a long time, i've felt nothing but lost. all through my life i turned to the doubt shown by others and the criticisms to my abilities to spur me on in any endeavour i ventured. i dictated my life at proving other people wrong... i still do.
but over the last few months, the growing consensus that the decisions i've made with regards to my life stop somewhere south of damning, have been pretty hard to tolerate. instead of giving me motivation, it's forced me into a corner and instigated a spiral of confusion and self-loathing.
this song was everything i've been afraid to admit... everything i've been wanting to scream out loud at the top of my lungs to the people who try to scare me. this song was all about people like us who've a chosen a path that they need to stick to against rhyme or reason - and are willing to go to hell and back just so we can...
this song... finally... gave a voice to the dark spaces in my head...
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Hi Katyana ^^
sorry for using your blog to contact you, but that's the only way I guess. *laughs*
I read your comment concerning the contract conflict of JYJ and SME and I was really touched that someone thinks about this in a realistic way, too.
From the beginning I wrote comments like that, too. But after noticing that every one still follows blindly the JYJ and hates erything else, I gave up to say what I think about that.
So I was really glad to read your comment.
Can we write e-mails to each other? I would love to speak to a more mature fan about all this stuff, since all the others behave like they hate fans, who have another opinion.
Have a nice day. :D
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SilverMagnolia, at
12:49 am
I am not sure if it is okay for me to leave a comment here, but I still will.
Originally I came here from dbsknights but I read this blog-entry. and you are so right.
I was - am? - the same. For many years I was always different from everyone else around me - until I found a friend, a sister who is still with me because she is just like me. We found a third girl later and you can't seperate us now.
But I had hard years. So many people around me tried to talk me into things I didn't wanted to do. But today I can proudly say, that even if I am not like everyone wants me and even if I am not like someone of my age should be - I am a person I like myself, I love myself. And that is what is really important, isn't it? To me it doesn't matter what they say. I admit that I have been hurt by them but I found something that I can believe in and I hope so did you.
Never give up and be someone that you like yourself. Fight for the things you love even if to everyone else they seem ridiculous. And don't change yourself because THEY want it. If you do it, do it for yourself. I believe that youcan do it. I really do because we are all fighters deep inside.
(And why I came here originally: I am interested in your theory why Changmin and Yunho stayed at SM (If it is you - I hope I am not mistaken XD) I really am fed up with all those hate comments. And discuss it with my two friends two because we just want to know what is going on.... So if you want to, just write me an mail: StandByYou@web.de)
Lots of love,
Lisa
By 
, at
12:54 am
It's me again, sorry for bothering you, if I annoy you, please ignore this two comments.
I just noticed that my blogger profile is broken so there is no way to contact me. But since you check the comments of your blog before publishing them, I give you just my mailaddy.
schaefer.jule@gmail.com
I hope I don't bother you, if I do so, please ignore me. ^^
Have a nice time ^^
Jule
By SilverMagnolia, at
12:57 am
