my day can only best be described by the song bachelor girl sang in the mid-1990s:
"... i walked under a bus. i got hit by a train... keep falling in love... which is kind of the same..." okay fine... i didn't walk under a bus... or get hit by a train. nor did i fall in love with anyone new today... BUT i do agree that falling in love feels like all those things. you should hear the rest of the song. got some rather notable mentions in there that you might find interesting... ;)
but all that aside... yes... i've had a pretty adventurous day. as i sealed my fate of being the poster child of melbourne's public transport system, i attempted EVERY service that they've had to offer in one day!
i took the
tram to school to attend my wretched 8am chemistry lecture. after classes i rode the
bus to chadstone shopping mall to run errands for mom. after, i took
another bus from the shopping mall to oakleigh station, and finally headed home on the flinder's street-bound
train. ;)
though sleep deprived as i was, today was a rather interesting day! my chem lecturer judy returned from her 8 week 'break' and i was glad to no longer be regalled with history lessons on chemical compounds by our sub doug (sorry doug... you're an awesome tutor... but leave the 200-large sessions to judy aiight? ;p). but from week 2 to week 9, all that we've known was the crawling 2-slide-a-day pace that doug had been subjecting us to. so having judy back to our usual speed was alot to get used to today. let's just say i'm in need of plenty of studying soon... sigh...
at 12pm i navigated my way to the bus stop outside the main entrance. now i was told a week a go that the 767 box hill bus would take me to chadstone... all i had to do now was figure out which side of the street that was one. i walked through the usual underpass that would take me to the tram stop, but this time bypassed it and climbed back up the road to the bus stop on the other side of burwood highway. unfortunately... wrong bus... and wrong side of the highway. so as i watched the RIGHT bus pass me by on the other side of the road, i hiked back the way i came and had to wait another 30 mins for the southland sc-bound bus to pick me up at 12.30pm.
when i got to chadstone, i found out that elyece was there too! (burwood's chadstone = city's melbourne central ;p). so i called her up and the two of us met up for lunch in one of the three famed food courts. it was nice catching up as we barely get to see each other now that we don't take any of the same classes. surprisingly, i found out that elyece too was planning on transferring out of deakin at the end of the semester! though her dreams take her to do vetrinary science at murdoch uni in perth, western australia, it was nice to talk about it openly with someone. i've been at deakin 7 months and only 2 people know of my plans to apply to melbourne. the only other person apart from elyece because he too was planning on moving! i know it's nothing to be ashamed off, but i guess i didn't want to go harping about it to all my friends... because no matter how i spin it, it makes deakin sound like a pit-stop for me. and yeah sure... maybe it is to some extent, but no matter how you spin it either, deakin saved my life. and no matter where my life takes me after this... that part will never change ;)
after lunch, elyece rejoined her wandering friend for some shopping as i got to my errands. BUT FIRST... a quick stop at new zealand natural to indulge in the sinful-and-yet-not chocolite (yes mom... i know you hate me ;p). walked over to priceline to buy a few things and then to david jones at the end of the strip. for those of you who don't know, chadstone is the largest shopping mall in australia (or was it the southern hemisphere?)... basically it's HUGE! but i've found that nothing is unbearable when you have a fully charged ipod and a cup of soft-serve ice-cream with you ;)
now obviously my commuting for the day relates somewhat to the bachelor girl song... but i can assure you she wasn't singing entirely about buses and trains ;) and neither am i...
you see this isn't my first post of the day. during my 1 hour break in between classes, i headed to the library to use the computers and penned a long entry down. i saved it as a draft because i didn't have the time to read it through before publishing it... which is always a mistake when it comes to the things i write!
the post had the makings of a bad emo song. because right before i wrote it... i had an moment of enlightenment (or atleast that's what my aunt calls it). my avid readers and close friends would know all to well of the presonal tribulations that i've faced over the past year. more so of a significant person that's been causing me the most heartache. they would also know of the hard decision i've had to make with regard to that person... in order to salvage the friendship the that i believed was more important than any else. even so... it's been very difficult to let something that complicated go... and all the while with a smile on your face. we're trying to to go back to the way things were. to the best friends we were when it all began. to start all over again ;)
it's been hard and it's taken alot out of both of us. but today i saw a picture that made it all okay for me. i'd been dreading that moment for the longest time. to be faced with the truth in such a blatant way. irregardless, i knew that it was a moment coming. that some day, i'd have to come to terms with the reality of our lives... the photo is an epitomy of my greatest fear with relation to us. or atleast it
was...
i'd made a resolve and i plan to stick to it. so when i saw the picture, i had the breath get stuck in my throat for a few a seconds, but swallowed and let the air fill my lungs again.
it happened and i didn't fall apart. it made me
angry of all the things you've done to me lately. all the things i've
brushed aside because i try to hold on to the person you are when no one else is around. i'm sorry that you've seem to have seen me
at my worst... but i'm alot stronger than you think! and that
i'm gonna be just fine ;)
so what does one do when a moment of such clarity presents itself to them?
they watch cute guys on tv ;D so yeah... randomly... here's a sneek peak at michael vartan's new tv series 'big shots' ;) enjoy and have a great weekend!
